Self Destruction

"Time and time again, we are learning to become humble, how to take the steps of humility, and how to talk humbly.  And so, she wore that hat, and used those shoes."

Once I heard a pastor said, "you have not yet arrived."  He is right, we will never come to that point in our lives where we will have complete knowledge of what is occurring in our lives, we will never get to a point where we are in complete control.  We can contribute to the fact, however, there is a greater power a greater means that keeps us under His outmost care. 

I have read several blogs from friends, from outside sources who share their experiences just to relieve the heart and soul...to pull that weight out and realease the pressure.  Although these bloggers may or may not know, they do in turn teach a lesson to someone.  I have definately learned a lot about how Transparency works.  There is this HUGE denial when it comes to expressing in full terms and complete honesty what our weaknesses are.  I fall under that category because I am afraid to experience Pitty.  I share my past experiences, my life stories for one purpose, to clean up the attic and dust my life away.

I am a very fearful person, more so like a coward for not owning up to my truthful thoughts and experiences. And becoming what most would call, an open book. If you are one of my readers, you will note I write in metaphors. Yes, that is because I do not want the wrong person stumbling into my own experiences and taking it towards the negative side of things. By that I mean, there are many twisted minds and who knows what they can make sense out of or not.

Talk about transparancy, well, I cannot reveal my complete experiences as of yet. There is soo much  I want to write about, so many events in my life, so many stories to share, however, I fear the pitty.  My life stories are all true, I do not write to seek self satisfaction, but rather want to express my gratitude to GOD because despite the difficult times, you can see HIS presence through it all.  I know most of my stories sound like stories from a book, from a creative mind, however, they are real.  I share them in the hope that someone may take a little piece of knowledge or perhaps stop and think about their own life and reflect on their own experiences and knowledge. Ask me, I can tell you. 

I have come a long way and there's still much learning to be done.  Funny as this may sound, I feel like Dracula, old and prunny, but when I learn more about God and when I satisfy this thirst of knowledge, I tend to rejuvenate.  No, am not a night owl, but rather a passionate minute to minute absorbing sponge.

I do have a question that perhaps anyone out there could throw me a piece of advice to:
When is it ok to burst out and say, I have had enough? Those who can't identify what humility is, mistake it for their own selfish needs...ignorant beings despite the ardous work one puts forth, will always want more and more, but where do you draw the line of being humble and allowing for the inner selfish being within oneself to come out and let out that fierce desperate cry to set oneself free?? Not making sense? Normal, have not put on my phylosophical hat on yet! T's you will see sometime soon!

Writting is my yoga, my zen, my dome, my heaven, my glass menagerie...it is my escape to elude the trecherous ways of perdition in daily bodily stress.

Again, I leave you with just this piece of blog...I do not like to write more than needed or sugar coat everything.  So, what I have is what it is. Take what you can and leave the rest up for reflection :)
"beyond the fleshy wounds, remainds a soul, hidden from the vicious wolves of today's society...feeding itself with the purest of knowledge, protected, but ready to take on a battle and stand proud..ready to overcome whatever worldly temptations that may rise up against it..I shall not fear the deeds of this world for I stand next to the pillar of my soul!" 

Sweating the Jersey for a Good Cause

"drop by drop the bodies began to moist the jerseys...each representing that symbol of every kid who sits back on a hospital bed...patiently waiting...the players poured out of their heart the struggle for survival in every intense move, kick, and score for a CURE..."

August 26th & 27th - ISOL & EL SOL Tournament of Hope benefiting the St. Jude Children's Research Hospital

First off, it took a lot of work to plan something out outside of El Sol's norms.  First time we venture into creating a sporting event something that is not a VIP party with celebrities, etc.  This was an exciting time for all of us!  The purpose, to raise awareness within the Latino/Hispanic Communities about St. Jude and the fact that our station [the only spanish radio station in Charleston] will be conducting their 6th Annual Radioton Promesa Y Esperanza 2011 on September 22nd and 23rd.

So, as the brain behind the tournament, I am proud to say that everything worked 100% to it's purpose.  Sure, next time will be better, however, we did an incredible job at getting the attention of the community through something they love to to - playing and watching soccer!

There were 8 teams battling to Stand out and win first place a total of $300 in Cash, the recognition of being leaders not only in the field but with character and humility.  Second place earned $150 Cash, plus medals that were passed to each player.  Each team played 2 games, the 3rd game was elimination with the teams having the highest points would move to semi finals and then finals.

To me this was a way to capture the audience with something that our Latino Community loves to do.  It was a complete success to see that everyone out there was very supportive to a good cause and knowing they were out there respresenting what most kids at St. Jude hunger for: a time to play and run freely expressing their joy through a single game.  Regardless of the level of skills, competitivity, everyone kept in mind that although the kids of St. Jude were not amongst us, they were in our minds and hearts.  That was the reason behind these games.  The players represented Health and how winning a game is like fighting to win a fight for a cure, the constant struggle of getting one step closer to getting more kids where they need to be: home. 

With each player in the field, ever kick, every goal, they represented that faith to continue to fight regardless! And of course not to give up.  In soccer there is a time limit and so it is with Cancer, but for as long as we continue to fight together as a team we will overcome whatever is to come!

I am very proud of this community for being out there, to ISOL for providing the place and making this experience a memorable one! And to all the teams and fans for supporting the KIDS! Thanks to ALL!

Here are some radom pics of the final teams that advanced to finals, Maria Laura and I giving out the Thank you SPeech and reminding everyone what the purpose of these games were, and also random pics of the day's events.

"And the hearts and minds were moved, they were captivated by the presence of such kindred hearts pouring their hearts out in every game ..."

St. Jue Balloon Outisde

The kids playing with water balloons {daniel and Maria Laura }

Uniao America vs. Los Irresistibles - 2 teams that went into finals

Me [Maria] & Maria Laura [Yang Scofano red] giving our Thank You Speech
And presenting the Teams with the Trophies and recognition!
(so there, who said a girl could not organize a little soccer tourney ;-)

More pictures can be viewed by visiting http://www.facebook.com/ El Sol Wazs-AM [become our friend whether you speak Spanish or not, we still have FUN!]