There are things that are difficult to say and others who flow almost immediately and fluently...
Today, I am not myself. It's an overwhelming feeling of distance. My soul is floating somewhere, taken as if by a breeze that took a fresh new spirit of life out someone. It feels as though my corpse, my dried carcass is simply carrying out a duty and it is moving by default and inertia, not by any desire of wanting to be there.
The mind is absent, the body is not.
Its been a few dificcult last few days, hard to explain, but just have not been my energetic self. My world seems grey and un-real.
It is equally difficult to say I am thankful. Life at this moment has no meaning and my motivation flushed somewhere.
My heart feels crippled. This is the first time I can honestly attest to feeling such coldness and not be able to trigger the conspirator of my low energy.
My smile has been placed on temporary leave, my energy took a dive, and my thankfulness for a daily's journey has vacated the premises.
This is by far the first time I will post something of this nature and of my weakness. It's unusual, to feel a void. To feel defeated by whatever it is that is pressing down on me.
I have lowered my head and bent the knees, have thrown my arms down and simply wait. Feels as though those most important simply have taken a route of forgetfulness and distance.
Today, I am not myself, and the inner me, cries out to find that joy and sunshine around me. It is rather abnormal and very sureal to feel this crippled.
The muscles of my face are tense, waiting eagerly to smile, my ears to hear your voice and my heart to feel your peace. Today more than ever, I am in need of YOU!
"There comes a time, where pride must be set aside, where the tears must roll down the path of endless ventures and simply let go of what is known and untrue..."
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