It is not easy to figure things out when you have a huge decision and you don't know what to do, much less alone.
I have been there and find myself in that spot. Struggling. Struggling through episodes of life where things seem endless and painful. My heart is undergoing series of open heart surgeries: am bleeding internally and somehow I have mananged to keep composure. Everyone is oblivious to the fact or my self. Its as if being a complete invisible being, no one dares ask or say, perhaps they dont know what to say or simply ignore. Truth is, I feel alone in a battle.
In a way, it is all ok. I know that I do not need an army to help me, I jus need myself...just as David stood in front of Goliath, here I am. Standing in front of that chapter of my life, that new challenge and adventure of walking life handicapped. Never had I felt this alone in life. I do not wish to "complain," I do not need approval or anyone to agree with me, I just want someone to be truthful, honest and simply hold my hand. What is happening? a lot.
In a way, it is all ok. I know that I do not need an army to help me, I jus need myself...just as David stood in front of Goliath, here I am. Standing in front of that chapter of my life, that new challenge and adventure of walking life handicapped. Never had I felt this alone in life. I do not wish to "complain," I do not need approval or anyone to agree with me, I just want someone to be truthful, honest and simply hold my hand. What is happening? a lot.
I just need patience, guidance, and truthfulness!
Lately, my heart has sunken into the depth of the cold ocean floor. Life is changing for the better, and life will get better. Meanwhile, I must undergo a series of trials and tests of faith. I know things will brighten up and I will be lead to purity and will find peace within.
I can see the light, its coming, I am simply here absorbing the moments of life and praying for clarity, for purity, and for comfort. I am not grieving a death, but rather healing a broken heart.
Lately, my heart has sunken into the depth of the cold ocean floor. Life is changing for the better, and life will get better. Meanwhile, I must undergo a series of trials and tests of faith. I know things will brighten up and I will be lead to purity and will find peace within.
I can see the light, its coming, I am simply here absorbing the moments of life and praying for clarity, for purity, and for comfort. I am not grieving a death, but rather healing a broken heart.
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