EL EDEN

"And thus the curtains fell with great roar and the stage shook to its foundation...realeasing a wave of vague dusty trail that was barely visible...disapearing into the air"

ADIOS - Goodbye For now...

It's suffocating...this feeling of anguish and anxiety...knowing you will be laid unpon that piece of property where once we set our eyes on, where our hearts wondered through the walk ways of perfect harmony... El Eden, such is the perfect resting place for your tired body. 

Mama Cati, once had shown us that place, had pointed out the specific spot where you and her would lay forever in eternal rest.  20years ago, we walked through the green grass never thinking about this day...never thinking this day would come...

My stomach is shaking, rattling as if a it were a magnitude 5 earthquake releasing all frustration...I am not there, however, feels as though I am glancing over...begging for you to stay just a little longer.  It is all too real now...everyone, dressed in depressing colors elegantly, yet so mournfully distant their glassy eyes wonder off into the sureal world...escaping this sudden reality of the uncertain process...of the unexpected departure of a loved individual.

And so, from a distance, I am thinking of you Papa Pedro...thinking of all those who are by your carcass side.. I know you are there in spirit asking everyone to lift up their spirits and not agonize within...I cannot help it..my heart is slowly bleeding...it trembles with insecurity and pain...I cannot stop the bleeding and slowly I grow weak...oh, this is so debilitating...I feel as if a wave of heat and coldness has touched my body leaving me nauceous....this is hard....

Off you go - into a world of unknown secrects and wonders...into eternal rest and peace...a place we merely have imaginations off...a delicate atmosphere sorrounded by finest silks, gold, luxuries that our minds cannot wrap our thoughts into...PAPA PEDRO...

Te Quiero mucho, I love you very much! I did not have a chance to tell you these words and missed out so much...so many memories we could've had...God knows why and what is the purpose for all of us to be so segregated and split into so many places...from where I am, I am thinking of you...talking to God to give you the best pillow He has so that your head can finally rest..without thinking of the painful moments you went through...When HIS angels visit you, send a note for us, ask HIM to give us peace, comfort, and overall unity...And don't forget, take a peak all through Heaven and whisper in my dreams the wonders of our Lord. 

Lord, hence the situation we are in...this season of life and growth.  Take this moment and speak to us the words of comfort and guide each person into gaining strength....embrace this family and give each the hope for a better day...Lord, look after our Papa Pedro, his last moments were painful to him, please receive him with all LOVE and CARE.  You know his life History better than we can ever imagine...you know how hard he worked and struggled throughout the years to get to where he was...among his loving children, grandkids, great-grandkids, and this...this is the last that any of us will see of him....receive him LORD and may his memory be a seed for wisdom and maturity...may it be an example into our lives...Thank you Lord for your marvelous wonders and for always keeping us under YOUR CARE...he was a man of courage! Elegant and very determined....I LOVE YOU PAPA PEDRO.....................

**I am not the best with words or goodbyes, this is a difficult stage of life and moving on seems as sluggish as can be...it's one of those moments where all you want to do is crawl back in bed...sleep away into a dream...

Sunset in Costa Rica - Photo Curtesy of Marcos Torrentes - My cousin in Costa Rica