A broken heart is also part of life. How many of those does one experience before really obtaining that satisfying happiness where the radiant moments of the sun's rays can brighten the soul and give your eyes the sparkle of joy?
I have heard God is the solution to everything. And He is. He is our creator and knows our hearts, yet I feel abandoned by such love where the emptiness is overflowing deep within me. Marriage, such a complex term. Yet in our culture today, it is a trend, a social acceptance, something we do to become part of that mass of that group and obtain that status. Marriage, has lost it's true meaning of love, purity, unison, and above all the happiness implied to give unselfishly of your life to become ONE.
And so I take a deep breath to inhale a bit of fresh air, to give my lungs a reason to operate, to move within me, I breath to give my body a bit of life. However, as I breath, it becomes heavy, hard to ingest... seems life is slowly deteriorating...
and here I am. Slowly decaying from lack of love. I was told marriage was for a life time, to grow old together, to care for one another until miserable death would pull our souls apart... and yet, here I am alone, in complete decay. Feel as though life is over....where did the meaning of "till death do us part, in good and bad, sickness and in health....
Where did all go?
It is for sure a story to tell, a heart split. grieving, but not completely lost... Yes, there is a purpose of life and in my life, to gain freedom, to be radiant, and to be a woman.
This is a goodbye eternally lost because of the lack of desire to want to be unselfish, to be giving and not just taking away... It is a good bye lost in the meaning of love...
So I will grieve the loss of years of learning, but will smile to the new stages of a growing heart.
*Written A while back...all while undergoing a moment of struggle.
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