Emotional Death

"...she closed her eyes, allowed for sleep to transport her to an eternal rest... She was emotionally gone..."

To die an emotional death is to be reborn and be created new. 

Any takers? Anyone?

Sure, I will be the first one to admit that when you die an emotional death you are born again, of the spirit. There is a rejuvenating process that undergoes just as anything that goes through the cycle of life. 

It is a great metaphor to consider, just as the bible teaches us to be born again. To be reborn of the spirit. 

An emotional death, I must break entirely to know what love is all about, to appreciate the lesson taught, to fully grasp the reality of my inner being. 

I have undergone that death, it is a painful moment. A stage of uncertainty, fears, and struggles of having a consistent self esteem. That insecurity of trusting the woman I am. 

It has been a long journey, walking through deserted roads filled with many obstacles. Needless, I have learned to walk upright and forward. Keeping my head high and not allowing the obstacles to shape me in any negative way.

It is a long process, it is hard and very difficult. 

Feeling very devalued, taken advantage of, and simply mocked. It will come to pass. I will be back to my normal self. 

Lord, I know I am not alone. Reading upon older journal entries I have discovered that I Was always being supportive and loving. It has besn difficult to witness how I gave so much and received so little. My eyes are finally open amd now I must work twice as hard to revive and resusitate my heart. 

Lord this is my heart, please come and help me be born again, to love and be the woman you have created me to be.